Between the good the bad and the plain ole ugly there are folks that none of these categories can truly wrap around. This brings me to a certain person (for the restraint that i am trying to show) will remain nameless that I just can't for the life of me get past. I'd love to get past her, Hell I'd throw a party for her if ever she would just "leave"! Honestly, I used to love my job there's not a lot of folks that can say that. Even after the hours get monkied with, the staff gets cut, the boss passes you up for a promotion (which I believe I was TOTALLY qualified for-that's just my opinion) and all the day today operational BS that every person with a full time job has the glorious fortune to deal with, I still have just one problem over all. That's right ONE! Its a biggie. (at least to me) Isn't there always that ONE person that just for whatever reason just gets a hard-on to be shitty to you? I mean customers, they come and go but some employees they just last for f*ckin' ever. I tried playing devil's advocate, maybe her life is really screwed up and work is the only place that she can be the uber-bitch on wheels and feel good about it, maybe she just really hates her job (shes not really a people person) and maybe just MAYBE I'll find the next winning lotto numbers in the trash can at the stop and shop. (right) Anyway all this started over a pair of pants (you heard me) and apparently I am the criminal because I "obviously" set out to buck the system and stick-it-to-the man every chance I get by for an undetermined amount of time being out of dress code. (She never did tell me how long this was) Now, let me go ahead and say I'm not the snappiest dresser on a good day. I try to stay within specs. I try to do my job to the best of my ability at all times. Ive been there about 14 years maybe minus 6 months or so. But I just cant win. I am completely cross-trained, cordial, helpful, respectful and amiable (but I lack basic fashion sense) I give up. Now I can hear you saying that it's probably just me being over dramatic, take your talking to and suck it up (and I have) but it's not just me. I cant tell you the number of times Ive been pulled aside by other (female) employees and they've just been talked down to, dismissed out of hand (questions not actual dismissals) or generally just been treated like their feelings didn't amount to squat and generally made to feel stupid from the same person. It's unbelievable. I really didn't get mad or shutdown until I got THIS response "Well we all shop at good-will." That in itself might not make you mad but this person doesn't shop at good-will cause she HAS to it's because she wants to there's a big difference (and then again there' that part of me that's willing to go "Well I don't know her situation either" but I'm done. Regardless it's been too long and too much petty. This girl will be looking for the best available job she can get and I'll just make do. Which really sucks because I don't want to start over at minimum wage again and sacrifice the remaining good feelings that I DO still have for the other people I work with and the good feelings that I have when I see a happy customer. But she's not going any where so you know that just leaves me. Maybe on the positive end of all this, there's a reason why. I like to think that this means the harder some thing gets in your life then it means that it was time to move on anyway. I cant change but so much and I seriously don't think that's the real reason at all. But I've always had a bit of a persecution complex and the idea that someone cant just come right out and say to me something that's there on the day that its happening but would rather wait an indeterminate amount of time is just passive-aggressive nonsense.
I did better than I thought I would, I seriously had a lot more expletives and some really derogatory stuff I wanted to say but honestly? What's the point? It won't change anything because I'm just a retail pee-on no matter if I have a position or not. I know Ill never be a manager, never wanted to be one (not a head manager or anything I could probably run a tanning salon or something) but I'm just tired and I don't think I deserve to be some crab-apple with issues' punching bag.